Coming home....

On the flight from Delhi to Dubai now, little Perpetua in the bassinet sleep soundly. I was in India following up on the GPPD sewing Microbuisness projects that we began this year. This was an amazing trip....coming on empty I have watch God move as only He can to show love to so many people ....I have felt like a funnel....held by the Master as He pours His love, His living water through my hands. I am not worthy or qualified by any means yet out of His grace He uses me.  5 memories from this adventure that will be etched in my mind...

 1. Perpet's bright eyes when we were shopping for fabric through Sultan Bazaar in Hyderabad amist the beautiful chaos that is India.

 2. The cool breeze as we slept under the midnight sky on the roof porch because the electricity was out. And the sweet giggles of 10 little ladies from our children's home as they came up to join us spreading there blankets and laying around us.

 3. Rani and Bujama's testimony. I definitely want to share the details of their story maybe in video form but the brief summary...God rescues the orphans when they cry out to Him and the poor in their time of need....and I have seen the fullness of the goodness of our God.

 4. The gracious testimony of a man we gave 2 goats to. Quoting him, "I will tell everyone look see that Jesus is the God that loves fully..... My family has not had food but now we can eat!" I will let Him tell you the story via video soon. 

 5.  Praying with dear friends both new and old for the full healing of my sister. And hearing their faith, "Heidi, she will be healed"


 If my little Perpetua could talk she would tell you about all of the people that made her smile, the sweet catches, the sights and sounds that mesmerized her and the joy of being close to mommy.

 The hardest part of being away was definitely leaving my little men behind....I just want to hug and kiss them and not let go. I haven't got home yet, but for what I understand dad did well! 

My challenge .... "just obey" weather or not you feel ready, weather or not you feel qualified, weather or not you have it all together in mans eyes.... Just obey God....go where He wants you, do what He wants you to....He doesn't require a list of qualifications HE just wants obedience. The miracles come when He is working....

empty

I am an empty cup... void of strength... void of righteousness of my own.... void of goodness.... unable to move or fill myself.....unable to seek, speculate, prophesy or even hope.

I have to be picked up.... i have to be filled... i cannot chose when....where...what.... i yield to my master ....have Your way with me.

Tomorrow i leave for India for 9 days ....just me and baby girl. I know it is the right thing to do and it needs to be done... so i do it...not that i am ready, or worthy, or the best person, or even want to. I feel like this cup .....pick me up.... have your way oh Lord.

Please pray for His filling, His words, His wisdom, His presence, His protection and peace for my little boys that i leave behind, His peace and strength for Jonathan who cares for them.

Pray that I trust my Maker... He is worthy of it. I am so weak but HE is sooo STRONG.

Pray for my sister as she completes her treatments this next week.

ode to a mother...

today is my sister's 35th birthday!

She is one of those mothers that does the laundry, changes the diapers, carries the 2 year old, cleans up after the dog, picks the strawberries, makes jam, makes breakfast, lunch and dinner, as well as multiple snacks, cleans the kitchen, does the dishes, home schools the 11, 8, and now 5 year old, bandages a boo boo, washes the faces, disseminates the fights, changes diapers, brushes teeth, reads a story, reads the bible, listens, disciplines, and teaches the truth all in days time........and all with stage 4 lung cancer.

We praise God for how well she is doing. She just finished her 3rd Chemo treatment and we are all in awe of how she is feeling. GOD is answering our prayers!!!! Please continue to beg for a supernatural miracle for Holly!!! And praise Him with us for how well she is doing now!



Now since i didn't have a good pic from our celebration today... i thought i would let you see a recent pic of my precious Perpetua Faith... 3 months now...isn't she beautiful.... moma boasting on mother's day is allowed.