Over the last several years, by reading God's word, i began to see that i wasn't really living what i say i believe. There were and are so many things in my life that don't line up with the way He thinks and how He sees the world.
A big one for me was the time, money, energy i spent on the non-eternal... you know stuff, fluff, pretty distracting things. Things that really don't matter in the big scheme of things... as the Bible calls it "meaningless".
Once i spent weeks trying to find a good deal on this bed for elijah. i saw it in a magazine and i guess i thought it would make me happier somehow because it was so cute... and that is just one example of many many many of my desires for stuff that doesn't matter to our creator. He is still working on me in this area of my life big time.
Last year i was complaining to Him on why i wasn't living in some country somewhere loving on people that need hope and love... I was telling Him it would be so much easier to live the way i know i should if i were there. He basically said to my heart, "Heidi, why don't you live for me that way here." OUCH... it reality hit.
I am not acting out what i say i believe and i am not willing to do what He wants no matter where i am.... though i am still His child, who He loves, as a Father, enough to reprove.
So this started a couple of things last year.... selling alot of stuff to selling stuff with others at proceeds for poverty to being able to build a water well for a poor village in India (giving 5000 people clean water) it also lead to reevaluating every cent that God has blessed us with. (p.s. i sold the bed and our headboard too... did you know that we really don't need one.. we have a mattresses and they are marvelous enough... the Bible says Jesus didn't even have a place to lay His head)
If you come to my house you are definitely going to see we are still sooooooo blessed... and so are our kiddos... none of us are lacking at all even though we have got rid of soooooo much fluff. i am still sooooooooooooooooo far from my thoughts matching His thoughts, i still covet, still spend time on material fluff that really doesn't matter, but I see Him doing something in me. He is cutting at the core... and it is good...i am wanting these dead branches pruned!!
i know He has been showing a lot of His followers all over america why He has blessed us so... not to build our own kingdoms but to build His...i see a change happening... and it is exciting.
We only are given one life to live. If we really believe He is who He says He is then we must do what He says we should do.
A big one for me was the time, money, energy i spent on the non-eternal... you know stuff, fluff, pretty distracting things. Things that really don't matter in the big scheme of things... as the Bible calls it "meaningless".
Once i spent weeks trying to find a good deal on this bed for elijah. i saw it in a magazine and i guess i thought it would make me happier somehow because it was so cute... and that is just one example of many many many of my desires for stuff that doesn't matter to our creator. He is still working on me in this area of my life big time.
Last year i was complaining to Him on why i wasn't living in some country somewhere loving on people that need hope and love... I was telling Him it would be so much easier to live the way i know i should if i were there. He basically said to my heart, "Heidi, why don't you live for me that way here." OUCH... it reality hit.
I am not acting out what i say i believe and i am not willing to do what He wants no matter where i am.... though i am still His child, who He loves, as a Father, enough to reprove.
So this started a couple of things last year.... selling alot of stuff to selling stuff with others at proceeds for poverty to being able to build a water well for a poor village in India (giving 5000 people clean water) it also lead to reevaluating every cent that God has blessed us with. (p.s. i sold the bed and our headboard too... did you know that we really don't need one.. we have a mattresses and they are marvelous enough... the Bible says Jesus didn't even have a place to lay His head)
(water well - in honor of a friend who died of cancer last year... she knew what was worth living for)
i know He has been showing a lot of His followers all over america why He has blessed us so... not to build our own kingdoms but to build His...i see a change happening... and it is exciting.
We only are given one life to live. If we really believe He is who He says He is then we must do what He says we should do.
If someone has enough money to live well and sees a brother or sister in need but shows no compassion, how can God’s love be in that person? Dear children, let’s not merely say that we love each other; let us show the truth by our actions. 1 John 3:17-18
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